Grandmama

My grandmama went to heaven to be with Jesus early this morning. I have felt many emotions today because I know how ready she was to go and see my granddaddy, but I'm also going to really miss her. For the last 10 months, she has been ready to go. Granddaddy was her world, and she was lost without him. It has been really hard the last 10 months because the dementia/Alzheimers is just an awful thing. She hasn't been "grandmama" for awhile and that was so hard to see. I cannot imagine how happy she was this morning when she saw Jesus and got to see Granddaddy again. That brings tears of joy! They were together for almost 62 years, and it was so hard not seeing them together. And I just get really sad thinking about them and remembering back when they were both so healthy and happy. I miss those days. I was lucky. I had grandparents who loved the Lord and loved us. And we knew that. I knew Grandmama got up every morning and spent time praying and just talking to God. She was such a godly woman and truly loved Jesus. She was such a great example of that in my life and it makes me sad to think that my children won't get to see that anymore. One of the last things she told my mom was to make sure the little ones loved Jesus. How awesome is that! I cry every time I think about that. But that's what matters - that we all know and love Jesus.

And after Jesus, Grandmama loved us. She would have absolutely loved if her house was big enough and every single one of her children, grandchildren, and great-grandchildren lived with her. She would have cooked every meal and just enjoyed being with us. She loved cooking and having anyone who could come for lunch or supper. She was a great cook! And she always had a dessert afterwards. I think her caramel cake was by far my favorite. :) She loved spending time with her grandchildren and then her great-grandchildren. We made her so happy. I have so many great memories of my grandmama. She was always there for me, and I knew she always would be. I remember when we were little, and we would go and spend the day with her. She loved playing the piano and singing while she played. One of my favorites was "I am a Promise." We would go to Grandmama and Granddaddy's house every year on Christmas Eve and eat lunch and open presents. And they would come to our house Christmas day and eat lunch with us. We always celebrated the holidays together which was special to me. They would usually come to our house for Mother's Day, Father's Day, and Thanksgiving. I was just very blessed to be so close to them and to see them so much.

As I've gotten older and had kids over the last few years, I saw how much Grandmama (and Granddaddy) loved seeing my boys and how happy they made her. She fixed up a closet in her den with toys for them. These were toys that we had played with when we were little so that was just special. :) Her family has always come first.

I visited with Grandmama last Sunday for a few hours with my mom. I didn't realize that was going to be the last time I saw her. Throughout my visit, she slept a lot but when she was awake, she just kept talking to God and asking Him to take her home - to her heavenly home. So I'm okay. I know she is at her heavenly home and her mind is good and she is "grandmama" again and she is with Granddaddy. And that makes me happy. :) But I surely will miss her.